Sunday Updates

I can't believe I've been living with R for five weeks now. We were talking about it the other night and he said it seems like I've been here for much longer. I agree with that when it comes to my comfort level and being used to everything. The first couple weeks were a little unsure as we dealt with the obvious repercussions of living with someone before your relationship is quite ready. Not that we aren't good or happy living together. But there is a certain level of intimacy that comes with cohabiting that generally exists in increments beforehand. After a month however, I do feel like that level has naturally been reached just by virtue of the situation itself.

Here are some other life updates:

• I began a new job as a barista nearby. The hours are early and somewhat long compared to what I am used to, but for the most part I am glad to be working so close to home. I am still working my other job in the city but since R is moving from night shifts to days, I will only be able to work there on Saturdays. My hope is to get a car and begin working there more when I can.
  
• It's been difficult dealing with Milo's death. I spent a good week after being haunted by the vision of his body when I tried to sleep at night. I'd have to turn on a podcast to distract me in order to fall asleep. Penny seems to be doing really well. I think she's happy to not be bullied anymore. But we still really miss him.
  
• The days are filled with work, Royals games, painting, and projects. I've been following the Royals games this season and I've gotten pretty into it and attached to the players (Hosmer!). I've been working on my painting and practicing with that. I should start looking up different techniques, and I'd like to try oil painting sometime soon as well.
  
• I've been trying to learn how to continue positive thinking, I am teaching myself how to accept and be part of right now instead of spending all my time thinking about what I wish would happen. I spend so much time thinking and worrying about the future, I think I have the tendency to miss out on right now. I am trying to change that and not worry so much.

• And lastly, R is on a week-long vacation from work this week so naturally, he's planned a little trip for us. I honestly don't know a whole lot about it other than that we're going to Eureka Springs, Arkansas, Silver Dollar City, and Cape Girardeau. Although I couldn't tell you what's in the latter, R informs me the five to six hour drive will be worth it and I'm going to love the reason we're going.
  I don't think I really even know when we're leaving...today? Or tomorrow? I don't know. We'll see what happens.
  If you haven't gathered, R likes to surprise me a lot. Whether it's mysterious trips, or fine papers from work (he works in a warehouse that ships paper), or donuts in the morning. R is so good to me and I love everything he does. <3

So there you have it for now. I am excited for this trip and I'll definitely share what I can here. I hope all is well with you and you're enjoying the season! I am definitely looking forward to the drive through the Ozarks and seeing all the beautiful colors and fall leaves. More soon and best wishes! 

Milo.

My sweet baby died today. 

He was only two years old, but he lived the fullest life a bunny could have. I know a lot of people don't know much about rabbits, but they're just like cats and dogs. We bought him from a breeder whose main buyers were those interested in rabbit meat. And for a rabbit who could have been meat, Milo was pretty damn lively.

Milo had the biggest personality of any animal I've met. I will miss his grandpa face, the way he'd ignore me when I called him, and when he didn't. I will miss how he would hop over immediately if he heard the fridge open, the way he'd try (and succeed) to jump in the trash can and eat leftover vegetables.
Milo gave no fucks. He did what he wanted and was never afraid of other animals or people. He'd lay where he pleased and try to steal your food if it happened to be something he liked. I remember one time this summer when he climbed on the windowsills and ate all the herbs and plants I was growing. His breath smelled like mint and rosemary for two days.

I have so many wonderful memories of my little bunny boy, I couldn't possibly write them all.
Milo was my baby and my heart is broken by his passing. He was funny, loving, friendly and sweet.
I will miss him so much. Rest in peace, Milo. I love you!